Archive for September, 2008

pity party-only miserable sods need attend

September 30, 2008 · Filed under general stuff · Tagged , , , , , , , , ,

Reasons why I am not a happy egg this evening. In no particular order

1. I was very disappointed with my result for my branch exposure reflective piece.

2. My mum has really annoyed me

3. Littlest piggy has been a handful this evening to say the least.

4. Littlest piggy has been a handful at nursery for the past week apparently, and has been put in time out on numerous occassions. He told me through sobs this evening that the reason he is being silly is “cos he wants me” when he is at school…cue feelings of guilt and maternal inadequacy.

5.I had a letter from aforementioned nursery telling me that unless I pay a hideous amount of money (which in fairness I do owe them) by tomorrow then its goodnight vienna on the nursery place, and hello debt collectors. It wasn’t just me that got one, but it still feels like a dig.

6. I am skint.

7. I am tired

8. I am stressed.

9. I am sick of being 6,7 and 8

10. I have so much work to do over the next couple of months. I was working to full capacity last year, what with juggling everything else and yet they tell me this year that we need to step it up.

11. I have had fleeting moments of weighing up whether all this is actually worth it. I really want to be a nurse, but after all, its a job and although I want to help/support/look after/provide care for people..is it really all worth it at the expense of my family life and emotional well being????

thats all, party’s over people!

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they grow so fast!

September 28, 2008 · Filed under family · Tagged , , , ,

I went to watch big piggy play football this morning. He is vice captain of his team..I am very proud. They lost 2-1 unfortunately but it was well worth getting out of bed for. When they had finished playing and piggy was walking across the pitch, I had a strange feeling of “no way, he’s so grown up”. In the time it took him to walk across, my mind did a quick replay of moments I could easily recall. Like when he was born, and I cried lots..amazed that this little person was my son, and when he ran into my room on his fifth birthday at stupid o clock shouting “I’m FIIIIIVVVVVVVVE!!!”. He is 11 in a couple of weeks and I really don’t know where the time has gone.

It’s the same with all three of them. Middle piggy was 7 the other day and littlest piggy starts school this time next year. They really don’t stay little for very long.

Even though the piggies can be little boogers at times, I am immensely proud of them and feel really blessed to have them. I’m a very lucky Mummy :)

(note to self…re-read this post when they are fighting and being a pain in the jacksy)

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flaskability

September 28, 2008 · Filed under general stuff · Tagged , , ,

Me, Rumple and the piggies three went into town today (well, yesterday really..but I m at work so it still seems like today) Rumple had to pick up his new glasses. They’re quite nice although they are a little Elvis Costello-esque.

Whilst we were in town, I went and bought myself a flask. I have been resisting buying a flask for the last 12 months. However, due to my need for large intakes of caffeine, I worked out that I am spending about 50 squid or so a month on coffee, when I am at Uni. I am far too poor for that kind of shennanigans. So I relented. It’s nice though. It’s powder blue with some kind of funky black flower thing going on. So there we are!

Talking of being poor, the credit card folk phoned me up today. They said that if I am experiencing financial difficulty, then they can see about setting up a plan whereby I can pay as little as 1 english pound sterling per week. By my calculations, in that case I would be 97 by the time that I had repaid those cheeky sprites. Excellent!

 

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done and dusted

September 27, 2008 · Filed under Uncategorized · Tagged , , , , ,

Last night at 4.40pm, I officially finished my first year. My mentor signed off my learning outcomes, and gave me a lovely bottle of red wine…half of which I drank last night.

The last year has been brilliant, stressful, a nightmare, a pleasure and everything in between. It would be nice to have a week or so off now to recharge the old batteries before going into the second year..but that starts on Monday at 9 am prompt. Never mind…whilst I’m on a roll I suppose..

Any other business…my arm is healing quite nicely. It’s till a bit tender but the bruising is beginning to go down a bit. It still feels a bit weird, but I ‘m sure I will get used to it.

Rumple and the boys have gone to football training so I have the house to myself for a little while. Here’s the tesco man with my shopping anyway, so I’m off!

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implantation

September 25, 2008 · Filed under general stuff · Tagged , , , , , ,

Today I was implanted with a rod full of hormones. It didn’t hurt. The injection did but the implant didn’t. Good stuff, Lidocaine. It numbed the area in seconds. Infact the whole process took about a minute and a half. I was a weed, I looked away, and winced lots when they did the injection. I then asked for a full arm plaster cast so as I could milk it for a few weeks. They laughed. I wasn’t joking.

Hopefully, this will eradicate my hormonal headaches and also regulate my PMT mood swings. Pippy commented that she has noticed that my mood drops lots around lady days. i think shes quite right.

The area, which is somewhere around my bicep, is still numb. It is going to be a very nice bruise. It’s all sorts of funny colours at the mo.

My doctor is by far the nicest doctor ever in the world. She is truly lovely. She is warm, kind, empathetic, and very professional. The nurse was lovely aswell. Did make the whole experience far less scary.

Tomorrow is my very last day as a first year nursing student. Therefore tomorrow night, I am going to drink wine and be most merry. I have worked dead hard all year, and enjoyed it very much.

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GET AWAY! MOVE BACK!! and all that jazz

September 23, 2008 · Filed under uni · Tagged , , , , ,

I have had a couple of very interesting and enjoyable days at Uni, learning lots of cheeky little maneouvres to get myself out of a sticky situation. The trainers were brilliant. They really knew their stuff. They were learning disability nurses who have been training students and staff in the management of violence and aggression for donkey’s years.

The stuff that they taught us was pretty simple, but dead effective. It’s all to do with pressure points and the flexion of joints etc. It is handy stuff to know for if and when I resume my social life, if I ever attract the attention of unsavoury characters.

I have practised on Rumple, he was quite impressed until i stuck my finger in his neck. Then he was unimpressed and wouldn’t let me play anymore. Spoil sport.

It was nice to be back at Uni. I have had enough of placement for a while. I have enjoyed it, but I am ready to go back now for a bit. Three days left and my first year is done and dusted!!!

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feeling better

September 21, 2008 · Filed under general stuff · Tagged , , , , ,

I am feeling much better now. Thank goodness. I hate feeling rotten, its pants…y fronts at that. The last time that I felt really naff was also when I was tired. This leads me to conclude that I need to get more rest and leave the unessential stuff.

I am my own worst enemy sometimes. I expect myself to be superwoman. Nobody else does. I am a bit anal and a bit of a perfectionist. So in a nutshell, Marge needs to ease up on Marge.

Work was fine last night. It went really quickly, seeing as I had my trusty laptop, to have a nosey at when it was quiet. It was pretty quiet all night really, just a couple of feeds to supervise. I had to feed one of the flower fairies aswell cause her Mummy was poorly. I enjoyed that lots. She is a beautiful little dot. Made me think that I shoudn’t hate my job really cause it’s a nice job to have.

I am tending to think that the grass is greener on the other side lately. If I had a different job then I wouldn’t be so knackered etc etc..however realistically, I can only work at night seeing as I don’t have enough hours in the week. Also it means that I’m not really away in the piggies eyse cause they’re asleep. So I shall stop moaning. Only 96 weekends to go until I hopefully qualify :)

I also found a really good website in the night. www.mentalhealthfoundation.org.uk. You can download lots of up to date info leaflets and reports etc, which may well come in handy when the essays start piling up again.

So all in all, I am back on track at the mo. Just a minor blip. Understandable really seeing as my plate is piled to the brim.

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utter shite

September 21, 2008 · Filed under Uncategorized

I’m at work..it’s 2.17am…and I feel awful. My headache has gone I think. I’m not struggling to stay awake either which is nice. My mood is terrible though. I had a shit day today (well, yesterday), and as it progressed, so my mood plummetted.

I am not a happy bunny. I also want a fag and can’t have one for another 5 hours and 15 minutes.

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what I should be doing, but can’t be arsed

September 20, 2008 · Filed under Uncategorized · Tagged , , ,

I should be doing my housework. My house is shitehole. It’s hard to keep on top of ,what with placement, coursework, and everything involved with being a Mummy. I really can’t be atall bothered though. I have a headache, just for a change. It’s the old lady day scenario yet again. I am also working tonight and therefore am trying to preserve what little energy I have for staying up all night.

I truly wish that I didn’t have to work atall whilst doing this course.

I think it’s fair to say that I am pretty pissed off today.

Thats all :(

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more hours in the day required

September 18, 2008 · Filed under uni · Tagged , , , , , , ,

I have been so busy for the past few days. I have forgotten what it is like to have plenty of time to do stuff at a leisurely pace. Tonight I finally finished my case study ready to be handed in tomorrow. So I am now having a glass of wine and playing on my new laptop, with which I am most pleased.

Ok, first things first…ECT. I went on Tuesday. It was really interesting and quite a surreal experience. I was really nervous as I waited to watch the first treatment. The lady came in, went to the loo, got on the trolley and took her jewellery off and teeth out. She seemed quite relaxed. I would have been shitting a brick if it was me.

After filling in all the paperwork etc, they wheeled her through to the treatment room. It was very formal in there, and all serious..understandably..although the ODP was wearing jeans. She was connected to the ECG macine, and the EEG machine, and finally, the dots were placed on her head for the ECT machine. Lots of “E” related machines. They inserted a venflon into her hand and gave her an anaesthetic and muscle relaxant. They put in a mouth guard. The doctor put some water based gel on the thingys that go on your temples…looked a bit like bike handles. He then reiterated the dose…40% or something, the nurse repeated what he said, he agreed, and she said “clear for treatment”…

At this point, I thought my heart was going to burst. I was so nervous about what I was going to witness and how I would feel about it. Then it started..

There was a slight electrical humming sound and the lady went all rigid…this lasted for a few seconds and then the handlebar things were removed. She had a slight seizure that was manifested by a bit of twitching and facial grimacing. Then she went still, and it was over.

They checked on the EEG readout to see what had been happening in her brain during the treatment. She was then wheeled through to recovery and hooked up to the monitors. She was fine. Her observations were checked every 5 minutes for 15 minutes..she was then wheeled over to another area to have a bit of a snooze. Which she did…40 minutes after she was wheeled into treatment, she had her coat on and was going home, all smiles…..it was so weird.

It wasn’t very nice to watch..but not horrific, not atall. Apparently the voltage used is only a fraction of what is required for a defibrillator machine. There are no moral objections to people having their hearts shocked to save their lives, but lots of people who object to folks having their brains shocked. Some patients say that for them ECT was a lifesaver. Maybe not instantly, but in the long run, they feel it gave them their life back. So for me, I am neither here nor there. I know that I wouldnt like to have it done myself..but aside from that, the Jury is still out .

I also got to remove 3 venflons which was cool. cause I never have before.

I was going to write about some other news but this post is pretty long, and my other news is just general waffle, so i shall save it for another day :)

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